Day 20: Bad Day :(

Today was a really awful day for me. I'm going to just sum it up by saying that I had a meltdown this morning and was ready to throw in the towel and come home. Literally. I got overwhelmed by the financial situation I'm in, the flat I'm in, the people I can't seem to relate to at all, the fact that I'm half a world away and spending money I don't have, and finally because I have NO IDEA why I am here. It all got to me today and I broke down. I even went so far as to email my program director, Jane, and ask about withdrawal fees and such. I just hit a really low point and had no desire to do anything or see or talk to anyone either...HORRIBLE feeling.

Anyways, after my freak-out, I got a call about 5 minutes later from the office telling me I could move that day. Completely out of the blue and not what I expected at all, since I was under the impression I would have to wait quite awhile and possibly not moving at all. But God works in mysterious ways I guess. I spent the next hour packing, then ran to town briefly before moving all my crap into my new (and thankfully still empty) flat. Another American girl named Sarah will be moving in tomorrow, but I am leaving for a weekend trip to Queenstown with Arcadia and won't meet her until Sunday. So hopefully, we'll see how it goes.
Another refreshing moment was when I opened my Bible to Jeremiah (which I've never read) and came across verse 17 in chapter 32. It reads "Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you!" It was definitely what I needed to get through that day, as well as Joshua's encouragement. He encouraged me that I could do this, and that I would regret it if this was the one thing I ever gave up on. He also reminded me that, once I finish here, I'm completely done with school and will have a heads up on job hunting since I'll be done before most everyone else graduating in December. Talking to him was awesome, and of course he told me everything I needed to hear. So thanks baby :).

Anyways, I do have a washer and dryer here, so I'm off to finish some much-needed laundry and then to bed. I leave tomorrow morning at 7 for Queenstown, and it's a trip I'm looking forward to! Goodnight!